I just can’t understand what’s happening. I don’t know if it’s me or if it’s really happening. Maybe it’s me fantasing things and creating expectation. But, if it’s not. If something is really happening… Well, it’s hard to say. I just, you know, don’t want to creat expectations that will not be fed.
I’m trying. I’m really trying to not look, to not care, to not expect. But I think that the more I try the less it’s working. I know i can’t do it by myself. I know that You have to be by my side, and that’s what I want more.
But, I can’t just take that possibility out of my head. I can’t help but thinking about that family and imagine what can happen. I can’t take the picture of that little girl out of my head. And why? You, more than anybody, know what’s the best for me. So, please Lord. Be with me. Gide my thoughts. Hold my emotions. And save what’s the perfect plan that I believe that you carefully prepared for me.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen.